Spiritual Discontent
(A little taste of Truth Like Fire)

Divine Discontent

The awareness that there is Truth that is unknown is divine discontent. Usually our awareness is in experience and the stories about those experiences. We build a concept of self around this story. In one instant of no thought, this story disappears and, you still are

I express for two reasons. 1st, to provoke direct inquiry into your Being. This is not inquiry into experience or phenomena. 2nd, to expose what obscures the obviousness of Truth. I don't teach anything because I can't give you what you already have. Realize who you are and enjoy the freedom.

I'm not saying don't partake of life. You are Being in all that life offers both pleasant and unpleasant. You are sensitive, so delight in life. All desire is the desire for Truth because Truth will eliminate the discontent. If you always seek experience to feed this hunger you will be disappointed because seeking is endless and will become a life long vicious circle. Rather than looking to the very source that all experiences arise from (ie, Being), one endlessly seeks more experience thus the vicious circle called Karma. Identification with material or spiritual experience is ego. Truth is not an experience; it's the formless source/witness of all.

One might say "if I embrace my discontent, I won't even want to live, I'll kill myself." This is not embracing it because the desire to kill oneself is the desire to avoid this discontent. Stop denying this hunger. The celebration of this hunger is bhakti, devotion, and ecstatic love of Truth. This is Tantra. You can give yourself to this inquiry. What is free in the midst of all that changes?

To hunt a monkey you secure a gourd to a tree and then place something shiny inside as a monkey watches. Then leave. The monkey wants the shiny object and will grasp hold of it and as his fist closes around the object it becomes too big to fit through the hole in the gourd and he is trapped. The monkey would be free if he would just let go but even as hunter approaches he will not thus he forfeits his life. The hunter is karma, the gourd experience, the monkey is mind, the object is identity and the grasping is desire. If you are identified with experience then you are like this monkey

The way to inquire is meditation, yet our awareness is diverted by the story of life or, spiritual experience, this is not noticing the source. Music needs silence to be but silence doesn't need music to be and so it is with the mind and experience. DO NOT TAKE THIS SILENCE FOR GRANTED! Even the worst pain can't take it from you, or the greatest joy. "I am this" nature speaking to you. I am suggesting you look and see who you are when there is no-mind. See that this so-called "I" is nothing but a concept of mind. I ask, “Who are you?”